Keeping food in check
I’m 28 and I work four days a week in HR for a defense contractor in the DC area and I go to law school at night. I just started my second year and, in general, I love school and I love the feeling that this is the first time in my life I’m 100% maxed out. For the first time, I’m giving everything I can and I’m DOING it! I’m not drowning or failing. I somehow manage to get everything done! But of course it can also be totally overwhelming at times. I’m the only one looking out for me. I live alone, except for my puppy, so that means I do all the cooking, cleaning, walking the dog, paying bills, figuring out a budget on top of going to school and working.
Working out has become a huge part of my way to cope. Right now I’m 15 pounds lighter than I was when I started law school last year and in general I’m pretty content with myself—I’d just really like to know how far I could go. I want to know what it feels like to not feel a little self-conscious in a bathing suit and to feel actually HOT! I weigh 160 right now and I’m 5’7″. My goal is 145-150 or a size 8.
I’m hooked on Turbo Jam and I alternate that with yoga and running six days a week. I generally work out every morning before work for 30-40 minutes and walk the dog for 20-30 minutes. I could not survive right now without working out. I feel awful and uncomfortable on the days I don’t and I feel strong and confident and able to handle my crazy life on the days I do. It’s so fun to say that I have biceps. And quads! And a pretty firm ass!
So it’s not working out that’s a problem for me, it’s totally food. FOOD FOOD FOOD!!! It seems to be the place where I find my comfort and collapse. All in all I eat pretty healthy food, but the portions are out of control and lately I find myself eating ALL THE TIME. And it’s always hardest for me in Fall and Winter. I love to cook and the thought of roasted squash and pumpkin muffins and dark beer and brats gets me so excited. It’s my outlet and the thing I look forward to every day. I love thinking about what I’m going to cook on the weekend when I have more time and searching through my favorite food blogs for recipes. Smitten Kitchen is my other favorite blog. God the food!
So that is my challenge. Being able to enjoy food as a hobby and part of my life, but keeping it in check. I want to see how far I can really go and what throwing off those last ten-fifteen pounds might do for me and my little life. Is it possible to have a release and not completely lose yourself in it?
– challenge sent in by Katherine
Oh, readers, I hope you have some good advice for Katherine, because this is one of my biggest challenges too. I also love to cook, and bake, but I have a very hard time with portion control when I do so. It’s easier for me to eat healthy when I make simple, lean meals, but I wonder if I’ll ever be able to bake some muffins and eat, like, ONE, you know?