In my last post, I was debating on switching to a Primal diet, and waffling on if I could make that commitment. It’s been two weeks – and here’s where I am at:
After a lengthy discussion with the SO, we agreed that Primal-ish is probably what is going to work best for us. He had major concerns with me taking such a large change to my diet. I understand – it is a big shift. I’m going to be cutting out grains and sugars for everyday eating. If the time is right, I’ll have bread or potatoes – but will do it smartly, and in a controlled manner.
And that’s where I’m scared. I’m so so scared of that control part. I’m not good at moderation in any part of my life – let alone with food. It’s ridiculously hard for me to have ‘just one’ glass of wine. ‘Just one’ cookie. ‘Just one’ new project. It’s always so all-or-nothing, and it’s darn near impossible to stop.
This blog is named ‘Ooh Shiny!’ because I love learning and experiencing new things. It’s also named this because I have a hard time not becoming obsessed with new things. New craft? OOH SHINY! I’m online surfing blogs at my lunch hour and making plans for visiting stores after work. New diet? Again, collecting recipes during the day, frantically putting items into my AmazonFresh cart for my after-work delivery, and then cooking for 2-3 hours when I get home. It dies off after about a week – but for that week there’s little else that I can focus on.
Is it healthy? Hell-to-the-no. I want to be able to control what I’m eating. What I’m planning for the house. What I’m thinking about. But in a normal, healthy way.
Since March, I’ve been changing my diet by completely eliminating the ‘bad stuff’. Caffeine, sugars, Lean Cuisines. Cold turkey – and off of them for as long as possible without a single taste. My reasoning for this is that if I imbibed – just a little – I would end up eating the whole cup/package/tub. That I would ruin ‘it’ and would have to start over from scratch. I let running be my new obsession. I figured that whole ‘moderation’ thing I could work on once I got down to goal weight and had to learn to maintain.
But since the whole ankle injury – what have I had to work on? Reading about running depresses me. There’s only so many arm exercises and pushpus I can do without my arms giving out. A-hah! Primal! Diet Change! Perfect! Something new, that I can make giant plans about and read blogs on and YAYAYAY SUMMER SAVED!
The only issue is that I’m doing the exact.damn.thing I always do. I’m binging on something new.
So this time? Moderation. I have the support of my best friend & SO. I can do this.
And? It’s going okay so far. I’ve been cooking (or at least making) breakfast, lunch and dinner. I’ve switched out breads & pastas for squash and veggies. I adapted Primal recipes to include rice & the such so SO will eat them. I’m making 1-2 new recipes a week – but not letting myself go overboard. I had beer this weekend – but it was for a big tailgate that I’ve been looking forward to for 12 months. I skipped the cupcakes and doughnuts in the office last week – co-worker’s birthday was not a good enough reason to break the 80/20.
I can do this. I can.