The New Year
So….I’ve been running! I know! Can you believe it! And it feels great.
I also have NOT been dieting which, for me, is a good thing. I have been on a dieting merry-go-round for several years now and it has made me crazy! My eating has been much saner now that I’m not constantly obsessing about everything that goes in my mouth. (Disclaimer: I’m not slamming diets, really I’m not. This is just where I am at right now.)
I am learning so much about myself. I have always been a planner, but in the past few years I have planned more runs than I have gone on and planned more “healthy eating” than I have done. You can see the problem? But just for today, I am trying to put one foot in front of the other. To run more and plan less. To eat when I’m hungry and stop when I’m full.
You know what I miss the most about dieting though? I miss the promise of losing weight. I miss the idea that I am in control and that I will lose weight if I just do what they say. Now, the truth is, I couldn’t stick to the diet, but I still miss the promise, you know? Instead of focusing on the promises, though, now I’m just going to focus on the work.