By Wendy 

Happy New Years everyone! I hope you had a holiday time filled with peace and joy!

I find myself starting 2011 at a bit of a crossroads. I might be making a big change in my life but I might not. I have to stay vague about the nature of the change as there are some variables that aren’t in place yet (and might not get in to place. Yay uncertainty!) but if the change happens nearly every part of my life will have to shift to accommodate it.

So, basically, I’m in a holding pattern right now, unsure if I’ll be walking down path A or path B. I find that I kind of suck in times like this, especially in terms of my fitness. It feels like this time, this *rightnow* moment, doesn’t really count, so I don’t do anything productive. Later, I tell myself, later I’ll get going again on my training. Once I know if I’m on path A or B, then I’ll stop shoving this candy in my face and I’ll lace up my running shoes again.

I’m hoping I’ll know more about my future by the end of this week but I know that I need to start moving again, to make the *rightnow* count. Because it does. Because I can’t wait for things to get settled to take care of myself. Because things are never really settled, are they?

I signed up for a Biggest Loser style weight loss competition that starts today and goes through the end of March. The prize is a pretty decent chunk of money, enough to upgrade my tri bike and get some cute new workout clothes. I’m officially putting this out there: I want to win. Real bad. Maybe the thought of the money can help motivate me during this waiting time. Wish me luck!

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